If you’re struggling, just remember that your past doesn’t define you. God knows exactly who you are, and if you trust in Him, you will be confident and loved too.
I went from struggling with my mental health, lust, and jealousy to teaching kids and sharing my testimony all thanks to God and the people that never stopped praying for me. Between the ages of 14 and 16, I was lusting and doing things with different people making excuses to make myself feel better. Once I turned 17, my family and I moved here and that’s when the anger and SH started. Almost every day, I would fight with my family and self harm constantly. It got so bad I ended up in the psych ward around 2 weeks before my 18th birthday.
When I was there I got diagnosed with clinical depression and generalized anxiety. Once I got out, it was 2 days before I turned 18 and I remember coming home to my 6 year old cousin asking me how the hospital was and I realized that I have younger siblings and cousins that are looking up to me. So I tried to put God in my life, but also living for the world, and I fell into sin. Not even a month in, I went on dates that led to sin until I ended up in a poly-relationship for 2 years. During that time, I slowly stopped going to church and started drinking, doing drugs, and having sex – all by the time I was 20. During those times where I did end up going to church, I was jealous of all the people that were happy and so confident in what they believed in. I felt like I deserved to be happy and have what everyone else had because of all that I have been through. Once I turned 20, I looked back at my life, and was honestly disgusted at what I noticed. I had become someone that I didn’t even recognize anymore. I started to slowly get my life together and around Valentine’s Day, I finally stopped living lukewarm for God. I started going to church daily, stopped hanging out with people that pull me into sin, I teach Kindergarten, I share my story with people, pray over others, and I’m finally confident in who I am and who I believe in. If you’re struggling, just remember that your past doesn’t define you. God knows exactly who you are, and if you trust in Him, you will be confident and loved too.
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